It's Bride Time

OH, hi!

Nice to see you all. No apologies for my absence - all my extra online time has been spent trying not to get depressed about the state of the world (ie doing my homework for my class). Oh, and a bit of sale shopping ... whoops!

Anyways, I wanted to let you know that it is on. On like Donkey Kong.
Yes, I've decided it is, finally, BRIDE TIME.

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The time when I go into hyper-gear and knock myself into the beautiful, beaming bride I want to be. It all started when I discovered this man has a new book out.

Oh yes, and it just happens to be a 3-wk challenge to get you fit for a big event (let's just say he mentions "the dress" enough to really get my attention.)

Some of the highlights of the new program include:

• Walking for 45 minutes BEFORE breakfast
• Enjoying carbs at breakfast - and no time ever after
• Bye Bye chocolate 

Yeah, it's going to be brutal. But that's ok - I've been stagnant at this weight (after my 30-lb loss) for a while now and I'm ready to shake things up.

Added to that, I'm going to throw in some health and beauty regimes I've been meaning to try, including:

• Teeth whitening! yummy
• Trying to beautify my hair with these natural treatments. Can it help with the swarm of white hairs I'm growing? Let's see.
• Vitamins
• Dry brushing
• Using all of the many skin serums and miracle creams I buy and forget about. 

The goal is to get any final weight loss done and over before my dress needs to be stitched back together and find out what other beauty regimes need to be added before the wedding (ie day of one thousand photos). Apologies in advance for either further radio silence or a smattering of bitchy posts in the next 3 weeks as I adjust.

Withdrawl

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Anyone who thinks sugar is not an addictive substance .... needs to look around them on the days after Halloween. See those hallowed out eyes and shaky hands? Uh, huh, just like crack, y'all.

I gave myself a buy on my normal no candy rule for Halloween...and the day after. Then today, I woke up with good intentions to stop. Get rid of what's left in the house and ignore the stash at work. Status as of 10:50am? Failed. I started craving candy. Wanting it, NEEDING it. I caved in and ate a Twix. It was blissful, unlike the shame that quickly followed. Now, what I want is to throw away every piece of candy I see and then dump motor oil over it so I can't even pick it out of the trash (remember that SATC episode with Miranda and the cake?)

Basically, what I've come to learn about myself is that if I have a little ... I'm gonna want a little more. I'm like a mouse with cookie, but instead of milk I'll just have another cookie, thank you. It's a lot easier for me to just not eat ANY than to eat a very little amount. The Happiness Project blog talks about people as falling into two camps when it comes to eating - Abstainers and Moderators. Moderators are your "classic" healthy eaters - they have the willpower to limit themselves to appropriate portions of unhealthy foods. I know a few of these people, and resent them infinitely. The rest of us fall into the camp of Abstainers - it's easier to just not order dessert than to eat only a few bites and push the plate away. I'm waaaay more successful at this type of diet - I've cut out all sugar before, as well as dairy and yeast. Sure, you break down and change the rules sometimes, but overall these habits have helped me limit my body's cravings for things I shouldn't be eating anyways. So, this weekend I'm clearing out the candy (except for my 72% dark chocolate - that is my daily indulgence and it will never go away) and trying to get back on track with my good habits .... at least until the holiday season comes along and blows that all to hell.